@vvaaaqqqqvvaqvvvvaqv said in #1:
> ... I don't even have fun while playing, I'm full of
> dread. It would be okay if I improved but nope.
If I remember correctly, about a week ago, you were playing lots of 3 minute games. It is an improvement if you now play mostly 10 minute games, but you negate much of the potential effect if you do things like think for only about 7 seconds after 1 e4 e5 2 Qh5 Nf6 3 Qxe5+ Qe7 4 d4 Nxe4 5 Bc4 d6 6 Bxf7+ Kxf7 7 Qf5+ and choose 7...Qf6, giving pajdalenka the opportunity to reply with 8 Qxe4. Sensible chess would have required that you pause long enough to notice that your e4-knight was in danger, nothing was protecting it, and the problem could have been addressed by playing 7...Bxf5. After 7 Qf5+ Qf6 8 Qxc8 Qxf2+ 9 Kd1 Qxg2 10 Qxb7 Qxh1 11 Be3 Be7 12 Qxa8 Bg5 13 Nc3, you apparently thought for about 5 seconds before choosing 13...Qxg1+.
“... Most internet players think that 30 5 is slow, but that is unlikely slow enough to play 'real' chess. You need a game slow enough so that for most of the game you have time to consider all your candidate moves as well as your opponent’s possible replies that at least include his checks, captures, and serious threats, to make sure you can meet all of them. For the average OTB player G/90 is about the fastest, which might be roughly 60 10 online, where there is some delay. But there is no absolute; some people think faster than others and others can play real chess faster because of experience. Many internet players are reluctant to play slower than 30 5 so you might have to settle for that as a 'slow' game." - NM Dan Heisman (2002)
web.archive.org/web/20140627010008/http://www.chesscafe.com/text/heisman12.pdfAfter one has practiced sensible thinking in slow games, one typically gradually acquires the ability to do sensible thinking more quickly. Many many players experience considerable difficulty while trying to improve by playing only fast games.
(Previous discussion at
lichess.org/forum/general-chess-discussion/how-do-you-deal-with-frustration .)